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Despite having a to-do list that may wrap the circumference of the earth several times over, I recently heeded my three-year-old daughter Felicity’s repeated pleas to go to the park. Low lying clouds created a hush all around the neighborhood, and the emptiness of the park itself led to a quiet, serene moment with just Felicity and me. The feeling of quietude, especially within the walls of my own mind, had been rare in recent days, so I was grateful that I had broken myself away from the agenda to experience this serenity.
Felicity, of course, headed straight for the swings — the big girl swing. On her tummy, she hopped up. She asked me to push her faster. Her legs were dragging so I told her to lift her legs higher. Unfortunately, the attempt to raise her little legs produced a colossal fall for her small body.
I reached down to pull her up and then I held my crying little girl. While brushing off the dreaded playground bark, I found myself saying the words that I needed to hear: “It’s okay, you just fell. You can get right back up and try again. Here sit on my lap–we can swing together.”
As I held my bark-clad daughter on that swing, my mind raced with the deeper meaning of my words. I am in the midst of a life transition — trying to accept my husband’s disease of Multiple Sclerosis, continuing to understand and fulfill my role in our family, and working to help support us through various avenues.
Lately, I have felt as if I were on the swing, trying to lift my legs to keep from dragging on the ground in order to reach new heights, but so often tumbling off into the dirt. After some falls, I am able to recover quickly; other times, I just want to sit there amongst the bark, chuck it around, and cry.
These colossal falls have required someone else to pick me up and offer to swing with me. I must understand that it is okay to fall; I just need to keep getting back up and rely on the Lord to help me stand and try again.
I have been praying for help from the Lord in acceptance and in opportunities, and now that I have my answers, I need to get to work. I need to not be afraid to fall. I need to stop letting each setback get me down, but realize that I have someone there who will raise me up and swing with me.
I am grateful that even in the everyday bits of life, such as a trip to the park with my girl, the Spirit of the Lord can touch my heart to find deeper meaning and answers for my yearning soul.
QUESTION: When have you found meaning or answers in something unexpected?
CHALLENGE: Consider the moments in your life where you felt that answers were received, and discuss them with a spouse, relative, or friend.
Image provided by Briana Johnson.
Heidi Bartle says
Thank you for sharing, Briana. You’re an unsung hero.
Briana Johnson says
Heidi I think we both may have signed up for the same classes in heaven:) It has been a joy being your friend. Thank you for your continued support.
Melanie says
Briana, your ability to be taught great life lessons in every day living is an inspiration!
Briana Johnson says
Melanie, I have never ceased to be amazed by the parallels you have drawn in life as well. I miss being taught by you on a regular basis. Your insights on motherhood and in keeping a positive outlook on life I will always treasure. Thank you friend.
Kobie says
Beautifully written Briana! Thank you for sharing!
Briana Johnson says
Thank you so much Kobie for your support. I am so happy that our life paths have crossed!! I hope they will again soon.
April Perry says
Great insights, Briana! We’re cheering for you!
Briana Johnson says
April I feel your heart reaching out to me always! I admire you so much and strive to be more like you. I am grateful for the time that we have had to spend together. I treasure them! I hope we will have more opportunities like that again in the future!